People say the strongest emotion is love. I disagree, although I may have said the opposite earlier.
I think the strongest emotion is Hate, because Hate is a form of love, but more concentrated.
Hate can either be the love of the thought of something not existing (for example, If i say I hate that pot plant in the corner, what I'm saying is how I would love for there to be no pot plant in the corner)
Or, hate can be the pure love of an object, to the point where you hate it. You want it, you need it, you can not have it, you hate it. There are many things like this that i hate. I hate seeing something perfect and knowing that it cant be mine, and also knowing that I cant hate it in the usual sense, it can not be destroyed.
If i could destroy it, problem solved. If i cant be happy, no one can (that sort of philosophy.)
Im in a bad mood tonight, im really tired and something today (cant remember what) has brought up some really bad memories.
I have a maths test tommorow that i really should be studying for, but I have neither the willpower nor the energy.
I have also realised to the extent at to which i am a fucking idiot, and damn i wish I could do what my alter ego (Edwin Brown, see my other blog) could do. I sound so lame, and I am lame, people have been telling me that for years. My closest friends, even people who are closer, and I've shrugged it off, taking it as a joke, but its starting to catch up to me, and im beginning to hate myself even more that i already do.
The thing is, this time tommorow, im probably going to be in an awesome mood, after an audition and with my mum, whos coming down from Hong Kong for the weekend.
But right now, all i feel like doing is lying in bed and crying. What a sad story...
Spam - I love it...
Im serious. I enjoy reading spam emails... Maybe it's because most of my emails are either Facebook Notifications or Wordpress notifications (Not that I get many of them...), but I love reading spam.
Everyone seems to hate it, emails selling viagra or porn, but I find them hilarious!
A few ones I recieved recently:
Obama and McCain Use This!
You're private photos found in Garbage
News - Personally Ordered by You
If You have gotten any other funny ones, leave them in the comments...
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008
The Journal of Edwin Brown
I have another blog.
This one is a story blog, totally fictional.
http://edwinbrown.wordpress.com
It follows Edwin Brown, a agoraphobic genius, who has to go back in time, to fix a mistake he made. It is an ongoing saga, written in parts...
This one is a story blog, totally fictional.
http://edwinbrown.wordpress.com
It follows Edwin Brown, a agoraphobic genius, who has to go back in time, to fix a mistake he made. It is an ongoing saga, written in parts...
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Au revoir
I'll miss you
and I won't be
the only one.
Enjoy yourself
and make the most
of what you get
Don't forget to
write, talk, call,
laugh, smile and live!
I stand by
my early promise
i'm always here.
I thank you,
for everything you've done
for me
Have fun overseas
I love you
in a totally platonic way
and I won't be
the only one.
Enjoy yourself
and make the most
of what you get
Don't forget to
write, talk, call,
laugh, smile and live!
I stand by
my early promise
i'm always here.
I thank you,
for everything you've done
for me
Have fun overseas
I love you
in a totally platonic way
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Friday, November 7, 2008
Coming up
I have a couple of things I can write about, but I'm very tired so I'll just list them now and expand later.
Formal
Cricket
Sculpture by the Sea
Drama
Formal
Cricket
Sculpture by the Sea
Drama
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Monday, October 27, 2008
more on beauty
i promised you a poem, and ive been talking about beauty, so i thought i'd post a poem on beauty
this is one i wrote for a previous girlfriend, to be honest, i cant remember which one (sorry!) but nevertheless here it is (ignore the last verse if you dont want to read a sappy love poem, thats not what this is really)
beauty is in the eye of the beholder,
but if you dont see your own beauty,
no one else will be able to see,
the beauty that you cant see,
its all a matter of opinion
beauty isnt real,
beauty is fake,
but it is beautiful
why do we cry?
why do we smile?
why do we laugh?
it is all for beauty
what is beautiful?
words on a page?
an image on a screen?
or is it more than that?
beauty is love
love is beauty
i love you,
you are beautiful...
this is one i wrote for a previous girlfriend, to be honest, i cant remember which one (sorry!) but nevertheless here it is (ignore the last verse if you dont want to read a sappy love poem, thats not what this is really)
beauty is in the eye of the beholder,
but if you dont see your own beauty,
no one else will be able to see,
the beauty that you cant see,
its all a matter of opinion
beauty isnt real,
beauty is fake,
but it is beautiful
why do we cry?
why do we smile?
why do we laugh?
it is all for beauty
what is beautiful?
words on a page?
an image on a screen?
or is it more than that?
beauty is love
love is beauty
i love you,
you are beautiful...
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Thursday, October 23, 2008
beauty and the beast
they say 'beauty is skin deep'
i disagree
beauty is not skin deep, beauty is much deeper.
good looks are skin deep, but being good looking is not the same as being beautiful
at the risk of sounding incredibly cliché, beauty comes from the soul
it comes from the heart
if someone has inner beauty, it shines outwards
not to everyone, because not everyone wants to see true beauty, and i say it sucks to be them, but if you look for it, you will find beauty where you least expect it
you may think you are 'the beast,' and a part of you is
the part of you that blocks your dreams, and doesnt let you believe in yourself,
THAT is the beast
but you, you are the beauty, you are beautiful
i disagree
beauty is not skin deep, beauty is much deeper.
good looks are skin deep, but being good looking is not the same as being beautiful
at the risk of sounding incredibly cliché, beauty comes from the soul
it comes from the heart
if someone has inner beauty, it shines outwards
not to everyone, because not everyone wants to see true beauty, and i say it sucks to be them, but if you look for it, you will find beauty where you least expect it
you may think you are 'the beast,' and a part of you is
the part of you that blocks your dreams, and doesnt let you believe in yourself,
THAT is the beast
but you, you are the beauty, you are beautiful
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Thursday, October 16, 2008
The Teenage Alchemist
Today I saw a play. I saw a staged reading of a draft of a play called "The Teenage Alchemist." I loved it. It was incredibly well written, and followed two teenage cancer victims and how they interact through the web. One character, Joshua, reminded me of myself, imaginitive, perceptive, out there, intelligent (dare I say it) and optimistic. He has a blog and has a secret wish to be a superhero.
After the play, there was a Q&A with the Theatre company director and the author. Someone critiscised the reality of a 16yo wanting to be a superhero, and in defending the play, I made a fool of myself.
See, I want to be a superhero. I want to be like iron man, or spider man or something and be more than me. That is my fantasy.
After the play, there was a Q&A with the Theatre company director and the author. Someone critiscised the reality of a 16yo wanting to be a superhero, and in defending the play, I made a fool of myself.
See, I want to be a superhero. I want to be like iron man, or spider man or something and be more than me. That is my fantasy.
Coming up
Oh and I'll pen a new poem tommorow, watch this spot.
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
My newest interest
As I've mentioned previously, my two main loves are Technology (mainly Apple) and Theatre (mainly Musical). I know have a new one. Superhero Comics (mainly Marvel). I read heaps of them over the holidays, mainly the Marvel storylines of Civil War, Runaways and Marvel Zombies. The depth of the characters and even the realism (it's weird isn't it?) was just amazing.
On the Apple Tech front, there's an event tonight, I guess I will find out when I wake up.
On the Apple Tech front, there's an event tonight, I guess I will find out when I wake up.
Home Sweet School
And I am back, back here at school where I belong. It's weird when you're a boarder, coming back to school is like returning home. You grunt and complain like everyone else, bit secretly you really really want to get back and see your friends. I know day students get the same type of felling, but when you live with your friends you become like family. And family are the closest things you can keep to your heart, and home is where the heart is. So I'm back, Home Sweet School.
Digital Worries
Sorry about the lack of recent updates... I arrived in Hong Kong a few days ago and have been a little buy busy...
I wrote about my finger earlier... Well here's an update on that.
As soon as I landed in HK, my parents saw my finger and took me to the hospital (which is conveniently located next door). The doctor was disgusted, and after putting my finger under loads of anasthetic, he ripped the nail off and let the pus drain out.
As you can see, it's all bandaged up, and it doesn't hurt at all.
I wrote about my finger earlier... Well here's an update on that.
As soon as I landed in HK, my parents saw my finger and took me to the hospital (which is conveniently located next door). The doctor was disgusted, and after putting my finger under loads of anasthetic, he ripped the nail off and let the pus drain out.
As you can see, it's all bandaged up, and it doesn't hurt at all.
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
More on relationships
Labels:
love,
relationships,
school
In our wellbeing period, which was today, we had a seminar on relationships. Basically, it looked at the elements of a good relationship with others and yourself, and the difference between platonic and deeper relationships.
I found this whole thing rather interesting, because it gave me a different perspective on relationships.
I believe that I am not complete without a partner, whereas the seminar told us that you have to be complete before entering the relationship.
Now I'm very tired, my pinky is still killing me, and I'm writing this on my iPod, so I won't go into detail right now. I promise I will layer if you want...
I found this whole thing rather interesting, because it gave me a different perspective on relationships.
I believe that I am not complete without a partner, whereas the seminar told us that you have to be complete before entering the relationship.
Now I'm very tired, my pinky is still killing me, and I'm writing this on my iPod, so I won't go into detail right now. I promise I will layer if you want...
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008
My school
Labels:
drama,
individuality,
life,
Personal,
school
I love my school.
I go to one of the only private boy schools in Sydney which lets me do what I want. I don't have to fit the typical mold of sport jock to be noticed. At this school, the arts are noticed just as much as sport.
I love drama, and at other schools I couldn't do drama to the extent I do here.
Another awesome thing about this school is that it offers so much support for every student. We are split up into small groups depending on house and year, and we spend time with our tutor every day. Also, once every two week cycle, we have a period dedicated to our wellbeing. I love this school.
I go to one of the only private boy schools in Sydney which lets me do what I want. I don't have to fit the typical mold of sport jock to be noticed. At this school, the arts are noticed just as much as sport.
I love drama, and at other schools I couldn't do drama to the extent I do here.
Another awesome thing about this school is that it offers so much support for every student. We are split up into small groups depending on house and year, and we spend time with our tutor every day. Also, once every two week cycle, we have a period dedicated to our wellbeing. I love this school.
My finger
I figured out what's wrong with my pinky finger. I warn you, this isn't pretty...
This finger has had a huge wart on it for as long as I can remember. Recently, the wart has spread to surround the nail entirely, which in itself is not a pretty sight.
I bite my nails, pretty badly as well. Sometimes when I bite, not all of it comes off and some of the nail gets trapped down the side. Occasionally this cuts the skin, and occasionally that cut gets infected, and oozes pus.
Now join the two together. A cut in the side of my nail has gotten infected, but due to the fungal growth (wart) it didn't ooze out, it oozed under the nail, building up, and it's the pressure which is killing me.
I try creating a hole on my nail with a thumbtack, but that failed miserably. Last night the pain was so great, I couldn't sleep, so I'm scared about tonight. I'll let you know how I go.
This finger has had a huge wart on it for as long as I can remember. Recently, the wart has spread to surround the nail entirely, which in itself is not a pretty sight.
I bite my nails, pretty badly as well. Sometimes when I bite, not all of it comes off and some of the nail gets trapped down the side. Occasionally this cuts the skin, and occasionally that cut gets infected, and oozes pus.
Now join the two together. A cut in the side of my nail has gotten infected, but due to the fungal growth (wart) it didn't ooze out, it oozed under the nail, building up, and it's the pressure which is killing me.
I try creating a hole on my nail with a thumbtack, but that failed miserably. Last night the pain was so great, I couldn't sleep, so I'm scared about tonight. I'll let you know how I go.
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Tuesday, September 16, 2008
some minor advice, its all about you
i think its time for some poems, we havent had one for a while...
these ones are motivational, i like to think they're fairly inspiring...
its all about you
live your own life,
it isnt anyone elses,
life is art,
you are an artist,
dont be afraid
of who you are,
be afraid,
of who you aren’t
dont be lonely,
you always have yourself,
salute, stop, think,
you are amazing
love everyone,
especially yourself,
the world is amazing,
you are amazing,
some minor advice
its your life,
live it how you like,
make your own decisions,
your own choices
dont judge,
but especially,
never let yourself
be judged...
stand up to yourself,
your instincts,
your voice
and your desire...
don’t give in,
but take some time to listen.
these ones are motivational, i like to think they're fairly inspiring...
its all about you
live your own life,
it isnt anyone elses,
life is art,
you are an artist,
dont be afraid
of who you are,
be afraid,
of who you aren’t
dont be lonely,
you always have yourself,
salute, stop, think,
you are amazing
love everyone,
especially yourself,
the world is amazing,
you are amazing,
some minor advice
its your life,
live it how you like,
make your own decisions,
your own choices
dont judge,
but especially,
never let yourself
be judged...
stand up to yourself,
your instincts,
your voice
and your desire...
don’t give in,
but take some time to listen.
holy shit
Labels:
drama,
life,
performance,
Personal,
school
i am absolutely screwed
i have a drama performance tommorow, and my group is so underprepared its stupid
every single lesson at least two people have been away, and our performance is less than halfway through rehearsed
in other words
we are absolutely fucked
i have a drama performance tommorow, and my group is so underprepared its stupid
every single lesson at least two people have been away, and our performance is less than halfway through rehearsed
in other words
we are absolutely fucked
Thankyou
Thankyou to everyone who has commented on my blog over the few months ive been running it
im just going to take some time out to reply to a few of those comments
to Krutika
Thankyou for your suggestion, as you can see, I did just that
to Eleanore
Thankyou for your compliment, im sure you arent THAT bad... im not that good either
to JoshuaHeizer
Thankyou for your beautiful poetry, i love your imagery
to Fitch
Thankyou for your comment.
I totally agree with everything you are saying, unfortunately, I wrote that post on my iPod Touch, so it wasn't too easy for me to effectively say what i meant.
What you were saying is actually the point i wanted to make. I guess that shows me that I need to review my posts a bit more instead of just posting them spontaneously
to Everyone who is reading my blog, Future, Present or Past
Thankyou for stumbling upon my little corner of the net. Thankyou for reading. Please, Comment.
im just going to take some time out to reply to a few of those comments
to Krutika
Thankyou for your suggestion, as you can see, I did just that
to Eleanore
Thankyou for your compliment, im sure you arent THAT bad... im not that good either
to JoshuaHeizer
Thankyou for your beautiful poetry, i love your imagery
to Fitch
Thankyou for your comment.
I totally agree with everything you are saying, unfortunately, I wrote that post on my iPod Touch, so it wasn't too easy for me to effectively say what i meant.
What you were saying is actually the point i wanted to make. I guess that shows me that I need to review my posts a bit more instead of just posting them spontaneously
to Everyone who is reading my blog, Future, Present or Past
Thankyou for stumbling upon my little corner of the net. Thankyou for reading. Please, Comment.
Decisions, Decisions
Labels:
choices,
friends,
friendship,
love,
Personal,
relationships,
teen
As I've said before, I'm the type of guy who needs to be in a relationship. Having someone there for me is incredibly important to my stability.
Over the past couple of months, I've 'liked' a number of people, and have been just about to ask them put when they start acting really really cold towards me because they discover my intentions. I'm sure this isn't totally their fault but it's had a pretty severe impact on my esteem.
I 'like' someone at the moment, but I'm hesitant to do anything about. Firstly, it could ruin our friendship, we ate very good friends at the moment. Secondly, I was talking to a friend of mine about relationships, and it is his view that people our age aren't mature enough for a stable relationship. While I don't necessarily agree, I can see where he is coming from. Most teenagers (I've noticed girls in particular, although boys are still in there) aren't ready to handle a full relationship.
This makes me hesitant, because I want a stable relationship, more than anything else. More than the iPhone 3G, and I want that a hell of a lot.
I'm also going to wait, because I'm about to leave for Hong Kong (where I live) and I've learnt from experience not to ask someone out and then go away for weeks. It ruins what could be a great relationship.
Over the past couple of months, I've 'liked' a number of people, and have been just about to ask them put when they start acting really really cold towards me because they discover my intentions. I'm sure this isn't totally their fault but it's had a pretty severe impact on my esteem.
I 'like' someone at the moment, but I'm hesitant to do anything about. Firstly, it could ruin our friendship, we ate very good friends at the moment. Secondly, I was talking to a friend of mine about relationships, and it is his view that people our age aren't mature enough for a stable relationship. While I don't necessarily agree, I can see where he is coming from. Most teenagers (I've noticed girls in particular, although boys are still in there) aren't ready to handle a full relationship.
This makes me hesitant, because I want a stable relationship, more than anything else. More than the iPhone 3G, and I want that a hell of a lot.
I'm also going to wait, because I'm about to leave for Hong Kong (where I live) and I've learnt from experience not to ask someone out and then go away for weeks. It ruins what could be a great relationship.
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Monday, September 15, 2008
that was that
wow,
more hate than love,
i hope you dont take that as meaning that i hate more than i love,
i like to think im a very loving person,
but i could be wrong,
i could be
ill try and make an even longer happy one, or just more of them
my pinky is absolutely killing me
it FUCKING HURTS!!!!
ARRGGGGGHHH!!
so...
as i sit here holding in my scream of pain,
let me know ur thoughts...
please
it cheers me up
i love getting the email saying "so and so has written a comment"
i get a warm fuzzy feeling somewhere around me heart
more hate than love,
i hope you dont take that as meaning that i hate more than i love,
i like to think im a very loving person,
but i could be wrong,
i could be
ill try and make an even longer happy one, or just more of them
my pinky is absolutely killing me
it FUCKING HURTS!!!!
ARRGGGGGHHH!!
so...
as i sit here holding in my scream of pain,
let me know ur thoughts...
please
it cheers me up
i love getting the email saying "so and so has written a comment"
i get a warm fuzzy feeling somewhere around me heart
i hate
Labels:
friendship,
hate,
life,
maturity,
Personal
I hate exams
I hate being asked to answer stupid questions with stupid answers
I hate missing out on boarding duties
I hate being punished for something out of my control
I hate immature people
I hate people who do things without realising the damage they cause
I hate never knowing exactly whats going on
I hate being rejected
I hate being rejected
I hate being rejected
I hate being rejected so many times
I hate seeing something blow up in your face
I hate having no control
I hate myself sometime
I hate what I have done
I hate friendships that dont last
I hate being responsible for things I dont want
I hate it
I really do
I hate being asked to answer stupid questions with stupid answers
I hate missing out on boarding duties
I hate being punished for something out of my control
I hate immature people
I hate people who do things without realising the damage they cause
I hate never knowing exactly whats going on
I hate being rejected
I hate being rejected
I hate being rejected
I hate being rejected so many times
I hate seeing something blow up in your face
I hate having no control
I hate myself sometime
I hate what I have done
I hate friendships that dont last
I hate being responsible for things I dont want
I hate it
I really do
There
That was my happy outburst for the day. It's good being in a good mood, everything seems good. Just wait until I'm in a bad mood, I'll be writing a more negative post like that. An 'i hate' or 'i miss' or something. I think that's a good idea, more of those style.
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
i love
I love weekends.
I love being able to do what ever you wanna do.
I love waking up at 9:00am for Bacon and Eggs.
I love not getting changed out of pyjamas all day.
I love playing video games for hours on end.
I love telling my parents that I've been studying.
I love talking to my friends.
I love having the best friends possible (you know who you are)
I love feeling sorry for myself, then realizing I have no need to.
I love feeling happy for others.
I love it.
I really do.
I love being able to do what ever you wanna do.
I love waking up at 9:00am for Bacon and Eggs.
I love not getting changed out of pyjamas all day.
I love playing video games for hours on end.
I love telling my parents that I've been studying.
I love talking to my friends.
I love having the best friends possible (you know who you are)
I love feeling sorry for myself, then realizing I have no need to.
I love feeling happy for others.
I love it.
I really do.
last resort
enter now for your chance to win,
all expenses paid,
one-way tickets a luxurious resort.
experience this exclusive destination
so much to see, so much to do
dont miss this once in a lifetime opportunity
dial the number on your screen
for your chance to win a trip
to the famous
expensive
exclusive
award-winning
breathtaking
stunning
last resort
incase you hadnt noticed, i wrote this poem about death, our 'last resort'
all expenses paid,
one-way tickets a luxurious resort.
experience this exclusive destination
so much to see, so much to do
dont miss this once in a lifetime opportunity
dial the number on your screen
for your chance to win a trip
to the famous
expensive
exclusive
award-winning
breathtaking
stunning
last resort
incase you hadnt noticed, i wrote this poem about death, our 'last resort'
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Thursday, September 11, 2008
new theme
i decided to refresh my theme, i think this one reflects the style of the blog nicely
i may be wrong, you may hate it, or hopefully, you love it,
drop me a line and let me know
i may be wrong, you may hate it, or hopefully, you love it,
drop me a line and let me know
back on track
for the past year i have felt overwhelmed, in over my head, out of it
ever since my parents moved to hong kong, and i had a fairly messy breakup (although we're great friends now, happy birthday!) i've felt like im not managing my life well. i got bad reports, i felt kinda empty, and i had quite a few major fights with my best friends
well today i can say that i feel different. i dont know why, but i really feel that that whole time in my life is over for now, and i can start fresh
so im feeling good, im finally there, i made it!
ever since my parents moved to hong kong, and i had a fairly messy breakup (although we're great friends now, happy birthday!) i've felt like im not managing my life well. i got bad reports, i felt kinda empty, and i had quite a few major fights with my best friends
well today i can say that i feel different. i dont know why, but i really feel that that whole time in my life is over for now, and i can start fresh
so im feeling good, im finally there, i made it!
train of thought
this poem of mine is one of my favourites. its quite long, and i've edited it from the original... (b
the darkness surrounds,
fighting back, the light,
blocking out everything,
all sounds, all thoughts.
how many times,
has it failed?
you haven't pulled through,
its always too hard.
people shouting
people talking
people singing
people not listening.
its funny, conversation
two people, talking
no people, listening,
two points of view.
conflict lives everywhere,
every eye, every mouth,
everyone who thinks,
it makes life interesting
resolution is rare,
you don't find it often,
true apologies don't exist
being wrong is right
to err is human
its in our blood
to forgive is impossible,
remembering the blood
its all behind us,
not listening
not thinking
not caring
im not sorry,
no one ever is,
laughing at yourself,
the hardest thing...
every action,
has an equal and opposite reaction,
acting is natural,
reacting is nature
everything we know,
this world, this mind
is fake
nothing is real
put it all on,
fake the facade
no one will know
no one will care
writing things down,
seeing the brilliance
in the human condition
is the way to live
the unexamined life,
is not worth living
examine every detail,
live every detail
the darkness surrounds,
it evolves, adapts,
like a train,
a train of thought...
the darkness surrounds,
fighting back, the light,
blocking out everything,
all sounds, all thoughts.
how many times,
has it failed?
you haven't pulled through,
its always too hard.
people shouting
people talking
people singing
people not listening.
its funny, conversation
two people, talking
no people, listening,
two points of view.
conflict lives everywhere,
every eye, every mouth,
everyone who thinks,
it makes life interesting
resolution is rare,
you don't find it often,
true apologies don't exist
being wrong is right
to err is human
its in our blood
to forgive is impossible,
remembering the blood
its all behind us,
not listening
not thinking
not caring
im not sorry,
no one ever is,
laughing at yourself,
the hardest thing...
every action,
has an equal and opposite reaction,
acting is natural,
reacting is nature
everything we know,
this world, this mind
is fake
nothing is real
put it all on,
fake the facade
no one will know
no one will care
writing things down,
seeing the brilliance
in the human condition
is the way to live
the unexamined life,
is not worth living
examine every detail,
live every detail
the darkness surrounds,
it evolves, adapts,
like a train,
a train of thought...
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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
school paper
our school paper is completely run by students, which is pretty impressive i think.
anyway, i was appointed the position of graphics designer for next year (starting next term) so I'm really busy putting together a layout in photoshop for it.
my current theme looks totally different to anything before it, which is exactly what i was going for.
wow, this headache is really bad, im probably going to go lie in bed for a while when i get back to the boarding house...
anyway, i was appointed the position of graphics designer for next year (starting next term) so I'm really busy putting together a layout in photoshop for it.
my current theme looks totally different to anything before it, which is exactly what i was going for.
wow, this headache is really bad, im probably going to go lie in bed for a while when i get back to the boarding house...
arggghhhh...
all day i have felt really ill...
i didnt miss a day of school or anything, i just suffered silently.
it was one of my bestest friends birthday today, and one of my other bestest friends birthdays tommorow. you dont know how convenient it is for me, because they are both really quite easy to remember...
anyway, im sitting here with a splitting headache and the feeling im going to vomit violently over the school computer i should be doing work on. does anyone important know about my sickness except me? nope. the school nurse? nope. one of my dormmates does because i let him have my dinner tonight, because i couldnt eat it. it looked absolutely delicious funnily enough, because it was spanish theme night tonight, so the kitchen puts heaps of effort into making it good. i didnt have any though...
so im going to sit here for a while and grin and bear my pain, knowing that there are so many people who are in greater pain than i.
i didnt miss a day of school or anything, i just suffered silently.
it was one of my bestest friends birthday today, and one of my other bestest friends birthdays tommorow. you dont know how convenient it is for me, because they are both really quite easy to remember...
anyway, im sitting here with a splitting headache and the feeling im going to vomit violently over the school computer i should be doing work on. does anyone important know about my sickness except me? nope. the school nurse? nope. one of my dormmates does because i let him have my dinner tonight, because i couldnt eat it. it looked absolutely delicious funnily enough, because it was spanish theme night tonight, so the kitchen puts heaps of effort into making it good. i didnt have any though...
so im going to sit here for a while and grin and bear my pain, knowing that there are so many people who are in greater pain than i.
long time no blog
well not really that long a time, but it feels like ages.
my school network logged me out of wordpress and i wasn't able to blog, and then i went up to my grandparents house who are sans internet. so I havent really had a chance to blog recently
so anyway, im back, and im in an incredibly good mood, because i confidently completed my yearly maths exam this morning and i got spore this afternoon!!
best day ever!!! yeeeeew!
anyway, im very excited, and addicted already
if you want to read anything in particular, more poetry, more philosophical stuff, just let me know
im more than happy to oblige
my school network logged me out of wordpress and i wasn't able to blog, and then i went up to my grandparents house who are sans internet. so I havent really had a chance to blog recently
so anyway, im back, and im in an incredibly good mood, because i confidently completed my yearly maths exam this morning and i got spore this afternoon!!
best day ever!!! yeeeeew!
anyway, im very excited, and addicted already
if you want to read anything in particular, more poetry, more philosophical stuff, just let me know
im more than happy to oblige
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Monday, September 8, 2008
Poetry, the language of the sou
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relationships,
soul
I love poetry. I think you may have noticed that with the amount I've published recently.
I believe poetry is a reflection of the soul. It shows the state of your inner being and reflects what you are feeling. For example, forbidden fruit was written after I tasted metaphorical forbidden fruit and gained a relationship from it. The relationship didn't last, but at the time I felt terrible but also a bit happy.
So please, read my poetry and give me feedback. I really want to hear it.
I believe poetry is a reflection of the soul. It shows the state of your inner being and reflects what you are feeling. For example, forbidden fruit was written after I tasted metaphorical forbidden fruit and gained a relationship from it. The relationship didn't last, but at the time I felt terrible but also a bit happy.
So please, read my poetry and give me feedback. I really want to hear it.
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Wednesday, September 3, 2008
one last poem - forbidden fruit
he knows he shouldn’t
but he cant resist,
the forbidden fruit,
it looks, it tastes, it feels...
so good...
he sees that its been picked,
but he just desires it more,
he deserves it,
no one else, its just...
too good...
can it be? it is,
the fruit has been dropped,
he picks it up, gently,
its bruised and scarred, but...
still good...
the thunder cracks,
the lightning strikes,
the sky shakes,
but he is safe, everything
is good...
but he cant resist,
the forbidden fruit,
it looks, it tastes, it feels...
so good...
he sees that its been picked,
but he just desires it more,
he deserves it,
no one else, its just...
too good...
can it be? it is,
the fruit has been dropped,
he picks it up, gently,
its bruised and scarred, but...
still good...
the thunder cracks,
the lightning strikes,
the sky shakes,
but he is safe, everything
is good...
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Tuesday, September 2, 2008
two poems
here are two poems that i wrote for school
start.day.end
open. close. open. start suddenly.
blinding brilliantly bright lights
nothing is familiar to you
for that split second.
that split second of unknown.
whirr. click. familiar.
your preparation commences
going through the daily routine
you are so used to it.
so used to it every day of the week.
ring. ring. chaos.
a sea of unknown familiar faces
a stream of figures flowing in all directions
fight it, swim against the current.
swim against the rest of the world.
wait. flag. alight.
you pay your bail, breaking out
all alone, sitting among elderly souls,
you think about the familiar end.
another end which comes again.
up. in. over. down.
you are drowning in the familiar silence
nothing is everywhere
you end it for the day
close. open. close. stop slowly...
return
she waited,
longingly, hopefully,
for the return,
the inevitable
he promised
faithfully, dutifully,
he would return
the deception
she believed
foolishly, lovingly,
in his return
the fantasy
he fought
valiantly, bravely,
so he could return
the endeavor
she accepted
begrudgingly, sadly
he wouldn’t return
the resignation
he returned
amazingly, surprisingly
he had returned!
the miracle
she ignored
blindly, painfully
his return
the betrayal
he waited
longingly, hopefully,
for her return,
the end
start.day.end
open. close. open. start suddenly.
blinding brilliantly bright lights
nothing is familiar to you
for that split second.
that split second of unknown.
whirr. click. familiar.
your preparation commences
going through the daily routine
you are so used to it.
so used to it every day of the week.
ring. ring. chaos.
a sea of unknown familiar faces
a stream of figures flowing in all directions
fight it, swim against the current.
swim against the rest of the world.
wait. flag. alight.
you pay your bail, breaking out
all alone, sitting among elderly souls,
you think about the familiar end.
another end which comes again.
up. in. over. down.
you are drowning in the familiar silence
nothing is everywhere
you end it for the day
close. open. close. stop slowly...
return
she waited,
longingly, hopefully,
for the return,
the inevitable
he promised
faithfully, dutifully,
he would return
the deception
she believed
foolishly, lovingly,
in his return
the fantasy
he fought
valiantly, bravely,
so he could return
the endeavor
she accepted
begrudgingly, sadly
he wouldn’t return
the resignation
he returned
amazingly, surprisingly
he had returned!
the miracle
she ignored
blindly, painfully
his return
the betrayal
he waited
longingly, hopefully,
for her return,
the end
blogging on a blog
im probably boring you all...
this place has become pretty depressing to read, all about deep and meaningful stuff that may be deep, but im guessing its meaningless to all of you
im going to try and do some cooler stuff
if any of you have any ideas, let me know
this place has become pretty depressing to read, all about deep and meaningful stuff that may be deep, but im guessing its meaningless to all of you
im going to try and do some cooler stuff
if any of you have any ideas, let me know
love, what the world needs now
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feeling,
life,
lifestyle,
love,
Personal,
Philosophy,
relationships
i just wrote a whole thing on trust, so i've decided to write more on aspects of relationships, and so i decided to tackle the big one. love. its also the most ambiguous and impossible to define, so lets give it a shot.
in the dictionary, love is described as "a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness."
read it over a few times, otherwise the meaning behind the unnecessarily eloquent vocabulary doesnt actually appear. this is a very shallow definition of my view on love.
im not pretending to be an expert or anything, infact im quite inexperienced as a 16 year old boy. i have felt love, and i know that for a fact. how do i know it? there is no way to know it.
the other thing about this article is that im not writing this to profess my love to anyone, i dont actually love anyone romantically at the moment. i assure you, when i do, you'll know.
anyway, back to love. i think that once you've loved someone, it cant dissapear. there are two possible things that can happen, it can be transferred into friendly love, or it can be transformed into another emotion (even a negative one). my law of conservation of emotion states that emotion can not be created or destroyed, it gets transformed. :p
the world needs love, and it needs it to stay, not to be transformed into hate
in the dictionary, love is described as "a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness."
read it over a few times, otherwise the meaning behind the unnecessarily eloquent vocabulary doesnt actually appear. this is a very shallow definition of my view on love.
im not pretending to be an expert or anything, infact im quite inexperienced as a 16 year old boy. i have felt love, and i know that for a fact. how do i know it? there is no way to know it.
the other thing about this article is that im not writing this to profess my love to anyone, i dont actually love anyone romantically at the moment. i assure you, when i do, you'll know.
anyway, back to love. i think that once you've loved someone, it cant dissapear. there are two possible things that can happen, it can be transferred into friendly love, or it can be transformed into another emotion (even a negative one). my law of conservation of emotion states that emotion can not be created or destroyed, it gets transformed. :p
the world needs love, and it needs it to stay, not to be transformed into hate
trust, the human vase
as i have said before, i view relationships as one of the most important things a human being has.
the two MOST important things in a relationship are respect and trust. as Walter Anderson said, “We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy” Trust is so essential to a relationship, but it leaves you open for an unimagineable pain.
i was talking to a very good friend of mine, someone whose trust i have broken, and she has gone through that pain, and we were talking about trust. we try to avoid talking about what happened, for both of our sakes, i feel absolutely terrible about it still, and would do anything in the world to make it up to her. we have fixed our friendship, and i trust her more than anyone in the world (excluding family) but i dont expect her to trust me. trust, once broken, can never be fully mended, there will always be that hole there.
if you are reading this, and im sure you will, i just want you to know that im writing about this because its on my mind right now. i dont expect anything to come of it, i gave up on that a long time ago and i can safely say now that ive moved on. please dont take this the wrong way, im just saying whats on my mind, and that conversation earlier put this on my mind.
trust, like a vase is breakable, and once broken can be put back together, but will never be the same
the two MOST important things in a relationship are respect and trust. as Walter Anderson said, “We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy” Trust is so essential to a relationship, but it leaves you open for an unimagineable pain.
i was talking to a very good friend of mine, someone whose trust i have broken, and she has gone through that pain, and we were talking about trust. we try to avoid talking about what happened, for both of our sakes, i feel absolutely terrible about it still, and would do anything in the world to make it up to her. we have fixed our friendship, and i trust her more than anyone in the world (excluding family) but i dont expect her to trust me. trust, once broken, can never be fully mended, there will always be that hole there.
if you are reading this, and im sure you will, i just want you to know that im writing about this because its on my mind right now. i dont expect anything to come of it, i gave up on that a long time ago and i can safely say now that ive moved on. please dont take this the wrong way, im just saying whats on my mind, and that conversation earlier put this on my mind.
trust, like a vase is breakable, and once broken can be put back together, but will never be the same
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Monday, September 1, 2008
the leaf returns...
i apologise for my pessimism the other day,
i havent completely lost faith in humanity, i just think that if we keep heading the way we are heading, we are going to end up far worse than we are at the moment.
thats why i think that we need to start again. it isnt going to happen, but it's something that definitely should happen.
dont get me wrong, i love humanity, and almost everyone in it, but our society is becoming increasingly bloated and corrupt
i havent completely lost faith in humanity, i just think that if we keep heading the way we are heading, we are going to end up far worse than we are at the moment.
thats why i think that we need to start again. it isnt going to happen, but it's something that definitely should happen.
dont get me wrong, i love humanity, and almost everyone in it, but our society is becoming increasingly bloated and corrupt
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Sunday, August 31, 2008
debating is a sport... alright?
Tonight I watched a great school sporting event, our schools 1st III debating against another private Sydney boys school. It was the biggest turnout in the history of the competition, 150 boys came to support our school. The topic was "that privitisation is the way to go." our team, the affirmative side debated very well and won.
I think that debating is so important, as it gives you two essential skills.
Working with and against others, and speaking in public.
Being a very enthusiastic debater myself, I think that being able to come up with a convincing argument in such a short amount of time is such a good thing to practice for later life.
I think that debating is so important, as it gives you two essential skills.
Working with and against others, and speaking in public.
Being a very enthusiastic debater myself, I think that being able to come up with a convincing argument in such a short amount of time is such a good thing to practice for later life.
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Friday, August 29, 2008
improved relations with teachers
i used to be the golden child. up until high school i was pretty much perfect when it came to school...
come high school, everything changes and im out of my depth. i fall behind in work and ruin first impressions with teachers who are going to have me for quite a few more years. because of my lesser performance in high school, i have a few teachers who have disliked me in the past. my physics teacher, drama teacher, music teacher and art teacher to say the least.
last term i got the worst report card i have ever gotten. it was absolutely terrible, and the effects of not doing well even worse. because of my crap report my parents refuse to sign the contract for an iPhone!! (i would pay for it myself)
anyway, thats beside the point, the point is that because of my poor performance last term, i have made a concerted effort to fix everything this term.
this morning, talking to a member of staff (not a teacher) who works with my drama teacher, he was telling me that my drama teacher was very impressed with me, and added that it was the first time he had heard my teacher talking about my like that
this news is awesome for me. hopefully my parents catch wind of this and let me get a friggin iPhone!!!
come high school, everything changes and im out of my depth. i fall behind in work and ruin first impressions with teachers who are going to have me for quite a few more years. because of my lesser performance in high school, i have a few teachers who have disliked me in the past. my physics teacher, drama teacher, music teacher and art teacher to say the least.
last term i got the worst report card i have ever gotten. it was absolutely terrible, and the effects of not doing well even worse. because of my crap report my parents refuse to sign the contract for an iPhone!! (i would pay for it myself)
anyway, thats beside the point, the point is that because of my poor performance last term, i have made a concerted effort to fix everything this term.
this morning, talking to a member of staff (not a teacher) who works with my drama teacher, he was telling me that my drama teacher was very impressed with me, and added that it was the first time he had heard my teacher talking about my like that
this news is awesome for me. hopefully my parents catch wind of this and let me get a friggin iPhone!!!
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Thursday, August 28, 2008
on the nature of my blog
i just find it interesting how much this blog has changed, at least from my point of view, over two weeks.
it started off as a tech blog, now its just my rants and raves, thoughts and feelings...
sorry... i just find it interesting
it started off as a tech blog, now its just my rants and raves, thoughts and feelings...
sorry... i just find it interesting
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
philosophy part II:relationships - the human archipelago
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Philosophy,
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I was going to write about the thought process and how i believe that affects behaviour, but when i look at it that can be summed up and better explained as the way we relate to others. I believe humans are the most social of animals and that our relationships are the most important part of our existence. i personally can not live without relationships.
in our world there are a limitless amounts of relationships, but they can be summed up into two different basic categories, good and bad. good relationships range from extreme (love) to mild (friendship) to basic (aquaintance). these relationships do so much for us as human beings, and not only bring us closer to other people, but closer to ourselves. this sounds incredibly cliched, but i only feel complete when i have another half to share everything with.
to those reading this who know me very well, i dont think you'll be surprised. when im in a relationship, im serious about it, but sometimes i get carried away and i completely fuck it up and thats a story im not sharing. i think that relationships are incredibly important because they link one person to another. this might not sound like much, but lets use an analogy. for example, think of each person as an island. self contained, able to do everything without anyone else. now think of a relationship as a bridge from one island to another. as you can imagine, this makes each individual island more efficient and able to do more.
another analogy is the internet. basically the internet is a collection of servers all linked together. to those who understand how it works, use that as an analogy for human relationships and you see what im getting at?
this one probably doesnt have as much meet in it as the last one, but i promise the next one, on existence, will be very fleshy... unless you think im going on a bit too much... let me know
in our world there are a limitless amounts of relationships, but they can be summed up into two different basic categories, good and bad. good relationships range from extreme (love) to mild (friendship) to basic (aquaintance). these relationships do so much for us as human beings, and not only bring us closer to other people, but closer to ourselves. this sounds incredibly cliched, but i only feel complete when i have another half to share everything with.
to those reading this who know me very well, i dont think you'll be surprised. when im in a relationship, im serious about it, but sometimes i get carried away and i completely fuck it up and thats a story im not sharing. i think that relationships are incredibly important because they link one person to another. this might not sound like much, but lets use an analogy. for example, think of each person as an island. self contained, able to do everything without anyone else. now think of a relationship as a bridge from one island to another. as you can imagine, this makes each individual island more efficient and able to do more.
another analogy is the internet. basically the internet is a collection of servers all linked together. to those who understand how it works, use that as an analogy for human relationships and you see what im getting at?
this one probably doesnt have as much meet in it as the last one, but i promise the next one, on existence, will be very fleshy... unless you think im going on a bit too much... let me know
huge thoughts, big impact
damn i wish i could be like these guys...
my two heroes, who have completely shaped the world we live in.
shakespeare - our language, our literature and our look at life
einstein - the way we think, how we see our universe
these two guys were so influential, because they didn't accept what had been given to them. they went out and started fresh. did it by themselves. einstein looked past the accepted way that the universe works, and found new things. shakespeare wrote so many plays, shaped our language. how? he created words! he created over 20,000 new words. before Romeo and Juliet, romance wasn't seen as a suitable theme for a tragedy and his use of soliloquies to explore characters minds was not something really done much in his time. before him there was no standardization of the english language, but after his plays became popular, it led to a more standard way of speaking and writing.
these guys are amazing. i wish i could be like them. to be recognised for what you have done in the highest possible way. and i dont mean an oscar, a nobel prize, a pulitzer or any other reward... i mean to have every single person on earth know exactly who you are and what you did. that is the best reward of all...
my two heroes, who have completely shaped the world we live in.
shakespeare - our language, our literature and our look at life
einstein - the way we think, how we see our universe
these two guys were so influential, because they didn't accept what had been given to them. they went out and started fresh. did it by themselves. einstein looked past the accepted way that the universe works, and found new things. shakespeare wrote so many plays, shaped our language. how? he created words! he created over 20,000 new words. before Romeo and Juliet, romance wasn't seen as a suitable theme for a tragedy and his use of soliloquies to explore characters minds was not something really done much in his time. before him there was no standardization of the english language, but after his plays became popular, it led to a more standard way of speaking and writing.
these guys are amazing. i wish i could be like them. to be recognised for what you have done in the highest possible way. and i dont mean an oscar, a nobel prize, a pulitzer or any other reward... i mean to have every single person on earth know exactly who you are and what you did. that is the best reward of all...
Turn over a new leaf...
We are screwed. Society is so screwed. We have too many rules to break and so much inequality. If only we could return to the ways of the past. Nomadic lifestyles, living off the land and sharing everything with each other.
I know this isn't possible and probably not ideal in some ways, but I think our society has become bloated.
I know this isn't possible and probably not ideal in some ways, but I think our society has become bloated.
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008
the race continues
I talked yesterday about the rat race, the human race, and I feel like some poetry so here's an Evans original.
The Race
On your marks. Get set.
GO!
The race starts as you exit the gates. Everything is a blur, a rush of confusion,
You try to stop but it's too late, you have too much momentum.
After a while you settle into the groove, running and not even thinking about it.
For the first time you notice your competitors, all around you, running the same race.
You pass several checkpoints, each one more important than the last.
After a while you slow down, lower the pace. It's easier, but takes more effort.
You tire slowly, as you approach the final stretch.
You can see the finish line. You approach and cross it!
The final irony is that by winning this race, you have lost another...
The Race
On your marks. Get set.
GO!
The race starts as you exit the gates. Everything is a blur, a rush of confusion,
You try to stop but it's too late, you have too much momentum.
After a while you settle into the groove, running and not even thinking about it.
For the first time you notice your competitors, all around you, running the same race.
You pass several checkpoints, each one more important than the last.
After a while you slow down, lower the pace. It's easier, but takes more effort.
You tire slowly, as you approach the final stretch.
You can see the finish line. You approach and cross it!
The final irony is that by winning this race, you have lost another...
high school drama
Two of my best friends in the world have had some 'relationship' issues recently. One of them, my ex girlfriend who is one of the nicest people I know, has liked the other for quite a while (couple of months). The other guy found out she liked him and asked her out. She said yes and they were both happy, or so it seemed...
The next day, the guy rings her up and says it's too hard and breaks up with her. In my eyes this is incredibly unfair both to her, and to me in a way.
I mentioned before that she's my ex girlfriend. She called our relationship off before it could go anywhere, but this was after 5 weeks of my absence (long story) so it was for good reason. I'm not angry or upset over that because it was my fault, but I think it is so unfair for my friend to give up what I missed out on for no reason. I may sound stupid, but that's because I am stupid when it cones to this.
If any of the people involved are reading this, I'm sorry for putting your story out there. I don't have a good reason, I just write about what's on my mind. Another thing, everything I write about is true. All events abc thoughts are real.
The next day, the guy rings her up and says it's too hard and breaks up with her. In my eyes this is incredibly unfair both to her, and to me in a way.
I mentioned before that she's my ex girlfriend. She called our relationship off before it could go anywhere, but this was after 5 weeks of my absence (long story) so it was for good reason. I'm not angry or upset over that because it was my fault, but I think it is so unfair for my friend to give up what I missed out on for no reason. I may sound stupid, but that's because I am stupid when it cones to this.
If any of the people involved are reading this, I'm sorry for putting your story out there. I don't have a good reason, I just write about what's on my mind. Another thing, everything I write about is true. All events abc thoughts are real.
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Monday, August 25, 2008
race resumed
Well I had a very fun weekend, it was great to have a weekend with no worries.
I've been so stressed lately, and while skiing I had none of that on my mind, so I felt fantastic.
Now I've returned to the rat race, and I'm not winning just yet... I still have ages until the final sprint, so I'm pacing myself for then...
I've been so stressed lately, and while skiing I had none of that on my mind, so I felt fantastic.
Now I've returned to the rat race, and I'm not winning just yet... I still have ages until the final sprint, so I'm pacing myself for then...
philosophy part I: religion... is there a god? it doesnt matter
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ive decided to write about my personal philosophy
this is fairly complex, and inspired by a friend of mine who has written his personal philosophy down, albeit in a completley different medium, and not for all the world to see, but written it down nonetheless.
i think alot. alot. im always thinking. the problem with this is that i've never written it down before, so this is going to be very interesting for me, and hopefully for you too. it is also going to be fairly long, so im going to do it in parts.
i'll start with religion. i believe that the universe we live in may or may not have a god or higher being. what i definitely think is that it doesnt matter if there is or not. if there was a higher being how created all that we now accept as reality, it would most likely not be a conscious being as we know them. it would be an unknown force guiding the way everything works. what this means for the average human is that you live for yourself. this force (different concept from star wars) doesnt care whether you screw your wifes best friend. it isnt going to send you into some place filled with brimstone and fire. this does NOT mean i believe that wrong is right, i just dont believe that we should use god as a judge, especially as we dont know what hes thinking, but he knows what we are thinking. we should use society as a judge, we have come up with all these rules, so lets stick by them and take the credit instead of giving it to some guy in the sky who gave us two huge stones with do and donts.
the problem with not believing in god is that there is no certainty. you cant ask someone whos seen him, because you only see him when you die. this means that the most important part of religion is faith, which i have plenty of, but not in a mere concept. the afterlife is also a very hard thing to talk about when your an atheist/agnostic/whatever the hell i am, but again, i don't think it matters. Christianity talks about 'Judgement Day,' the seconf coming of Christ to judge the earth. i believer that we do meet god (or my idea of it) and that there will be a judgement day, but it isn't in the distant future. for somepeople its right now infact! the ultimate judgement in this world is death, and everyone is ultimately judged when they die. this concept may sound at odds with my previous ideas about the nature of god, but the point about my belief is that they are open. it is just a string of concepts, meaning that it is incredibly flexible and changeable.
sorry for that fricking essay, but its something i wanted to get out of my system. in part II i may talk about how i believe people should live. so life in general.
and thanks to lost for my first comment on this blog! please feel free to comment if you read this, i cant tell how many unique views i get from the built in stats...
this is fairly complex, and inspired by a friend of mine who has written his personal philosophy down, albeit in a completley different medium, and not for all the world to see, but written it down nonetheless.
i think alot. alot. im always thinking. the problem with this is that i've never written it down before, so this is going to be very interesting for me, and hopefully for you too. it is also going to be fairly long, so im going to do it in parts.
i'll start with religion. i believe that the universe we live in may or may not have a god or higher being. what i definitely think is that it doesnt matter if there is or not. if there was a higher being how created all that we now accept as reality, it would most likely not be a conscious being as we know them. it would be an unknown force guiding the way everything works. what this means for the average human is that you live for yourself. this force (different concept from star wars) doesnt care whether you screw your wifes best friend. it isnt going to send you into some place filled with brimstone and fire. this does NOT mean i believe that wrong is right, i just dont believe that we should use god as a judge, especially as we dont know what hes thinking, but he knows what we are thinking. we should use society as a judge, we have come up with all these rules, so lets stick by them and take the credit instead of giving it to some guy in the sky who gave us two huge stones with do and donts.
the problem with not believing in god is that there is no certainty. you cant ask someone whos seen him, because you only see him when you die. this means that the most important part of religion is faith, which i have plenty of, but not in a mere concept. the afterlife is also a very hard thing to talk about when your an atheist/agnostic/whatever the hell i am, but again, i don't think it matters. Christianity talks about 'Judgement Day,' the seconf coming of Christ to judge the earth. i believer that we do meet god (or my idea of it) and that there will be a judgement day, but it isn't in the distant future. for somepeople its right now infact! the ultimate judgement in this world is death, and everyone is ultimately judged when they die. this concept may sound at odds with my previous ideas about the nature of god, but the point about my belief is that they are open. it is just a string of concepts, meaning that it is incredibly flexible and changeable.
sorry for that fricking essay, but its something i wanted to get out of my system. in part II i may talk about how i believe people should live. so life in general.
and thanks to lost for my first comment on this blog! please feel free to comment if you read this, i cant tell how many unique views i get from the built in stats...
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Thursday, August 21, 2008
let it snow... let it snow... let me go...
im not going to be in sydney this weekend, im going to go up (or is it down? im so bad at geography) to Thredbo, one of Australias most popular ski resorts (not neccesarily the best though...). As I told you the other day, i'm a boarder at a private school in Sydney, so what would I be doing going to thredbo in the middle of the term? I'm very lucky that the school organises a boarders ski trip, so while the rest of the school will be stuck at home studying, i'll be on a mountain skiing! i love skiing, but that doesnt neccessarily mean im great at it... i like to think i can ski fairly well.
and yes. im going to wear a helmet, and im proud of that. firstly because i know im going to be safe, flying down the helmet with my head incased in a hard protective helmet, and secondly because i have the coolest helmet! its totally jet black, with two flames on the side. i swear they make me go faster! (but is that good for a safety implement?) who cares!
so the moral of the story kids, is that i'm not going to be around for the weekend, so for the imaginary people im writing to, dont give up on me!
in the words of his excellency, the governor of california, i'll be back
and yes. im going to wear a helmet, and im proud of that. firstly because i know im going to be safe, flying down the helmet with my head incased in a hard protective helmet, and secondly because i have the coolest helmet! its totally jet black, with two flames on the side. i swear they make me go faster! (but is that good for a safety implement?) who cares!
so the moral of the story kids, is that i'm not going to be around for the weekend, so for the imaginary people im writing to, dont give up on me!
in the words of his excellency, the governor of california, i'll be back
About Me
I've told you it's coming, now here it is. About Me.
My name is Tom Evans. I am 16, and go to a private school in Sydney where I board. I have been going to this school since I was 8 but I only started boarding last year when my family left for Hong Kong. I like to think I'm a nice guy, and I know exactly what type of person I am. I know who I am which is a very important trait in my opinion.
My biggest interests are technology and theatre, an interesting mix. So I'll be writing about those things in the future.
If you want to know more, just ask for it in the comments.
My name is Tom Evans. I am 16, and go to a private school in Sydney where I board. I have been going to this school since I was 8 but I only started boarding last year when my family left for Hong Kong. I like to think I'm a nice guy, and I know exactly what type of person I am. I know who I am which is a very important trait in my opinion.
My biggest interests are technology and theatre, an interesting mix. So I'll be writing about those things in the future.
If you want to know more, just ask for it in the comments.
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
rant #2
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censorship,
internet,
Personal,
rant
I'm still in a crappy mood... I had a shit day at school today, and I have 5 assignments due this week. Grrr... Also, the friggin boarding house Internet (which is finally back) is
A) too slow to download a movie from iTunes in under 2 days...
B) only works from 6-11pm on weekdays (12-11pm on w/es)
C) doesn't let me on wordpress.com to edit this blog so I have to use the iPod touch app...
So yeh... Well my next post, I promise will be an about me post.
Please comment!
A) too slow to download a movie from iTunes in under 2 days...
B) only works from 6-11pm on weekdays (12-11pm on w/es)
C) doesn't let me on wordpress.com to edit this blog so I have to use the iPod touch app...
So yeh... Well my next post, I promise will be an about me post.
Please comment!
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Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Grrrrr....
I am angry!
There are two reasons for my anger:
I just lost a debate to a team of arrogant pretentious wanksts who quoted historical quotes to prove us wrong AND at the time of writing, the Internet is not working in our boarding house! This is especially infuriating seeing as I just spent $50 on a now useless iTunes voucher to buy movies (on a lighter note... MOVIES in the friggin' iTunes store!)
There are two reasons for my anger:
I just lost a debate to a team of arrogant pretentious wanksts who quoted historical quotes to prove us wrong AND at the time of writing, the Internet is not working in our boarding house! This is especially infuriating seeing as I just spent $50 on a now useless iTunes voucher to buy movies (on a lighter note... MOVIES in the friggin' iTunes store!)
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Friday, August 15, 2008
Monday Update: back...
Sorry about the lack of updates over the w/e, I went up the coast to visit my grandparents with my mum who was in town for the week. I guess this means nothing to you yet, as I haven't written an about me post yet, but all in good time my friends... Coming up soon: theatre reviews ( Gallipoli & Monty Python: Live at Cranbrook School), more iPod troubles, the possibility of a new writer an about me post, geography excursion and even more iPod troubles... Please comment, it's a great tool for me to gauge my audience!
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Monday, August 11, 2008
Monday Update: back...
Sorry about the lack of updates over the w/e, I went up the coast to visit my grandparents with my mum who was in town for the week. I guess this means nothing to you yet, as I haven't written an about me post yet, but all in good time my friends... Coming up soon: theatre reviews ( Gallipoli & Monty Python: Live at Cranbrook School), more iPod troubles, the possibility of a new writer, an about me post, geography excursion and even more iPod troubles... Please comment, it's a great tool for me to gauge my audience!
Note the title says Monday Update, I'm sorry for the lateness, but I forgot to post this after writing it last night...
Note the title says Monday Update, I'm sorry for the lateness, but I forgot to post this after writing it last night...
Ipod touch troubles...
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bugs,
iphone,
ipod touch
My iPod touch is screwing around.... Only one of my apps is working... And that's this one, wordpress. Last night none of my apps would even open, so I deleted them and reinstalled them from the app store. They still don't work! Infact not even wordpress works perfectly, just then as I opened it up my whole iPod crashed and restarted! Tonight, i'm going to update it to 2.0.1 and unjailbreak it.
EDIT: As soon as i tried to show someone how it wasnt working, it fixed itself! I hate it when that happens!
EDIT: As soon as i tried to show someone how it wasnt working, it fixed itself! I hate it when that happens!
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Thursday, August 7, 2008
Wordpress for iPhone
Labels:
iphone,
ipod touch,
Review,
Software,
Technology,
wordpress
I write this thought from my iPod touch. The wordpress application has been a seamless experience so far, all I have had to do is put my blog in, press new, tag and categorize and now write. I have screenshotted the way, so if images come up I have either figured out how to insert images from my iPod, or I've edited it later... If you are a wordpress blogger, and own an iPhone/touch, you no doubt already have this app, but if you don't, I reccomend you give it a shot!
Edit: as soon as I wrote the above and went to put photos in, the app crashed and I returned to the home screen. I have noticed this with multiple apps, but be warned!
Edit: as soon as I wrote the above and went to put photos in, the app crashed and I returned to the home screen. I have noticed this with multiple apps, but be warned!
a big thought
you might have noticed the title of my new blog, 'Big Thoughts, Little Impact'
this blog is going to be my new personal blog, i am going to be writing about my life, but also reviewing a number of things, movies and plays i've seen, software and hardware i've used, and i will be commenting on the technology industry. im no valley insider, but god i wish i could be...
so let me know what you think of my blog, for my next post i'm going to review the wordpress for iphone application (i will be writing the review from my ipod touch, so only if it works...)
this blog is going to be my new personal blog, i am going to be writing about my life, but also reviewing a number of things, movies and plays i've seen, software and hardware i've used, and i will be commenting on the technology industry. im no valley insider, but god i wish i could be...
so let me know what you think of my blog, for my next post i'm going to review the wordpress for iphone application (i will be writing the review from my ipod touch, so only if it works...)
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