Bad Mood: Please Ignore...

People say the strongest emotion is love. I disagree, although I may have said the opposite earlier.

I think the strongest emotion is Hate, because Hate is a form of love, but more concentrated.

Hate can either be the love of the thought of something not existing (for example, If i say I hate that pot plant in the corner, what I'm saying is how I would love for there to be no pot plant in the corner)

Or, hate can be the pure love of an object, to the point where you hate it. You want it, you need it, you can not have it, you hate it. There are many things like this that i hate. I hate seeing something perfect and knowing that it cant be mine, and also knowing that I cant hate it in the usual sense, it can not be destroyed.

If i could destroy it, problem solved. If i cant be happy, no one can (that sort of philosophy.)

Im in a bad mood tonight, im really tired and something today (cant remember what) has brought up some really bad memories.

I have a maths test tommorow that i really should be studying for, but I have neither the willpower nor the energy.

I have also realised to the extent at to which i am a fucking idiot, and damn i wish I could do what my alter ego (Edwin Brown, see my other blog) could do. I sound so lame, and I am lame, people have been telling me that for years. My closest friends, even people who are closer, and I've shrugged it off, taking it as a joke, but its starting to catch up to me, and im beginning to hate myself even more that i already do.

The thing is, this time tommorow, im probably going to be in an awesome mood, after an audition and with my mum, whos coming down from Hong Kong for the weekend.

But right now, all i feel like doing is lying in bed and crying. What a sad story...

Spam - I love it...

Im serious. I enjoy reading spam emails... Maybe it's because most of my emails are either Facebook Notifications or Wordpress notifications (Not that I get many of them...), but I love reading spam.

Everyone seems to hate it, emails selling viagra or porn, but I find them hilarious!

A few ones I recieved recently:

Obama and McCain Use This!

You're private photos found in Garbage

News - Personally Ordered by You

If You have gotten any other funny ones, leave them in the comments...

The Journal of Edwin Brown

I have another blog.

This one is a story blog, totally fictional.

http://edwinbrown.wordpress.com

It follows Edwin Brown, a agoraphobic genius, who has to go back in time, to fix a mistake he made. It is an ongoing saga, written in parts...

Au revoir

I'll miss you
and I won't be
the only one.

Enjoy yourself
and make the most
of what you get

Don't forget to
write, talk, call,
laugh, smile and live!

I stand by
my early promise
i'm always here.

I thank you,
for everything you've done
for me

Have fun overseas
I love you
in a totally platonic way